Thursday, May 25, 2006

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Snakes & Sewing Machines

Yet another weird dream.

I'm driving through bakersfield and somewhere on the way back I see something for sale. I get out and walk around on a thin side walk along empty plots of land. There are all these little rattlesnakes along the side of the sidewalk. Someone touches one and I tell them its venomous but they do i t anyway. Later I find myself tweaking with a sewing machine. It has this weird alarm that won't stop. Theres green lights that turn on and off inside. The alarm is actually my alarm to wake me up. So I wake up.

I dream of snakes way too much. Hmm...

Monday, May 15, 2006

Stay where it's warm...

After an enlightening conversation today w/ the p-sychiatrist, I have come to the conclusion I do not need negative peepoles around me. So, I'm trying to be around the positive folk. So yes, if you are positive, thrive with me! But on weekends, huh? Weeknights are for work or emergencies heeh. :)

***Jesse commented on this "i hope i qualify" on May 16, 2006 02:36 AM****

Sunday, May 14, 2006


So I'm at my grandmas today. My grandma is showing off her knick knacks. This is from so and so , this is from so and so, why dont I have something from you? Ok, I recall ages ago my grandma told us she had too many of those things and not t o get her anymore so I get her flowers. Basically the flowers come and go and I buy her flowers to plant in her y ard so she doesn't hafta spend the money on them each season out of her very short comings of retirement and social security funds. Especially since we've had talks about how she never has money to go to green arrows for flowers with her left over money. What the hell is expected of me right? I feel frustrated and worthless right now like I can't do anything right for that woman. Lori, don't feel bad you were praised for the deer and the windchime. Perhaps I should get her something so horribly gaudy heh he heh. I do recall I got her this nice cookbook once for low cholestoral since she has high cholesterol and bitches about not being able to eat anything. I also recall that cookbook coming back to us in a bag of trash and hand-me-downs. I may not be a kiss up but I am a honest person. That's all I can give you, my honesty. I try to help out where I can with TRUE thoughts, not show. You don't like it, fine. Sigh.

Friday, May 5, 2006


So I'm at lunch right now bored outta my mind. It was one of those BBQ thing days. Slash birthday. Slash Cinco de Mayo. I am just like eeeegh. Things could be a lot busier here but they aren't. I'm begging people for work ahah. Literally there's like hardly anything to do here. I am eagerly awaiting football season to get here with its masses of orders. Till then, meh.

Thursday, May 4, 2006

What does that say about you???

I've lost the ability to dream. I want it to come back soon. Then it will be normal.

The Balboa-Ness Monster

For whatever odd reasons I decided to go to Lake Balboa on Sunday. It was weird because there were these creatures coming out of the water. It looked like a seal coming out of the water and made these breathing sounds. Gross eew. I tried catching them with no success...

Today I decided I would get one after work. I conjured up the spirits of the Balboa-Ness Monster by summoning it via Ouija board and ritualistic dancing. The Gods were on my side producing the monster of the lake.

It was nothing more than some ugly little black fish.

Salted Nuts

I recall this time of the year some 2 or 3 years ago eating salted nuts with Dan and making silly noises and talking about Schwetty Holiday Balls. Sigh. I miss Dan. :(