Thursday, December 28, 2006

Visiting Jesse and Susanville Randomness

Ok this is scattered to the best of my recollection:

Wednesday: met a trucker on the fly away who liked guns. Met up with Jesse in Reno. Had a great drive back to Susanville. Stopped off at some gunshop and met one of his teachers who we would later be having thanksgiving dinner with the next day. Stopped off at the bowling alley. Met the infamous Wes and the moreso chubby than fat neighbor Hoss.

Thursday: went to Jesse's teacher's house for dinner. Spent the day there. Snaggled Jesse's drinks whilst playing a new card game hand and foot. Tricky at first but then fun. Saw his teacher get drunk and serenede everyone there with the guitar. Did a really bad rendition of Freebird. It was fuckin brilliant.

Friday: Did nothing. Really. We watched tv and walked around the school. We saw horses and goats and then went back. Jesse had to go to work so I sat around and watched tv and fell asleep.

Saturday: Was pretty much the same. Only we gotta go shooting with Wes. The ride up was fuckin hillarious. But not as funny as the ride back. We Susanville drifted around this one corner at like 90 which was supposed to be taken at probably like 30. it was fuckin sweet. Wes drives like a maniac and i wouldn't expect any less from Jesse's friends. Kudos to his gnarly driving skills. Oh yea, that reminds me, on Wednesday night when Wes dropped us off at the dorms he totally turned all fast into the parking spot and me and jesse flew to the other side of the car cos we didn't have seat belts on. Jesse fell into Wes's lap quicker than a whore who was promised crack for a blowjob. Oh man, that was funny shit. Jesse spilled his ice and reminants of pepsi all over the car. it was mostly ice...
Back to shooting though. We shot pumpkins. All the good guns were in the shop so it was deuce deuce, Das Glock, and the .45. I never shot a .45 before but I quickly learned it wasn't too much gun for me. In fact I like the .45. So there! I gotta shoot Wes's gun that was pretty fuckin sweet. Then Jesse started shooting at rocks with Wes's gun and then they shot at bottles and whatever random crap they could find. It was great shooting fun with those two. But shooting is always fun...
After that it was back to the dorms for me and jesse had to go to work... again. It sucked. I watched tv and went to sleep.

Sunday: Sunday was a good for nothing do nothing day. We woke up around 1 and didn't do shit. Then it started snowing and I wanted to go outside so we went out for a little bit. Back to indoors. Watched some teevee. Jesse had to go to work... yet again... fortunately I had the company of Hoss's girlfriend Jen. We chatted girl chat for about 3 hours before deciding to go walk around the snow. We built mini snowmen and slid around on slippy ice spots on the ground and threw snowballs at signs. it was fun. THen Hoss came home and then Jesse got home shortly after. The four of us went outside and had a snowball fight and then visited the goats again. We looked like the biggest bunch of dorks around it was fantastic! Jesse had his helmet on, I had his civil war cap, hoss had god knows what some sorta KKK gnom knit hat, and Jen had some hunting cap. But wait! The best part is Hoss wore this wool undersuit thing but I called it his Santa Jammies and he got all booty hurt and it had the buttflap and everything and was red. ahahahah. Fuuuunnnyyyy stuff....

Monday: FANTASTIC!!!! i gotta go to gunsmithing school with jesse. it was fuckin


I told him if i ever win the lotto I wanna go to gunsmithing school too cos damn, i wish i could just up and go now but i got a job and what not. its not something i would spend my life doing as a profession but id love to learn it as a hobby. maybe i'll do it when i retire or something. we'll see. anyway after class we went out to get breakfast/lunch depending on what people ordered at this little diner called Harts (not to be mistaken with Hearts in the valley...) It was some good eats although Jen had been had with her potato soup. Apparently it was just the same as the gravy only with potato pieces and some garlic. *snort* After that we made a quick stop at Kragen and then Wes's and then it was time for me to go home. Boo :(
The ride back to reno wasn't as exciting. In fact it was rather depressing. Jesse and I were trying to figure out when we'll see each other again and I pretty much decided I would drive up for Christmas and again for my birthday, so we'll see what happens then. Hopefully I'll have enough cash to go. Flight home was bumpy as fuck and I think if i didnt have as much blind faith in captains as i do, i would have been kinda scared, but i wasn't... god bless blind faith.

So yeah, that's my trip to Susanville. I was kinda bummed that we didn't get to do more and that Jesse had to work so much but at least I gotta see him.

Susanville randomness:
They got this talk show on sunday morning called swap and shop where people call in saying stuff like "i got a used refridgerator for sale $50 or best offer call 555-2434" and then the host will be like "555-2434" or they'll be like "I'm looking for a dobermine puppy if anyone has any call Terri 555-0080" and the host says the phone number again. i totally could see myself listening to swap and shop looking for a great deal on something heh.

They got cash call up there. only its not 866-590-CASH CASH CALL CHA CHIIIIINNG. its something else. its like 877-860-CASH. i dunno. its hard to remember the number without a catchy jingle. i just thought it was wrong that it was a different number up there. go figure, right?

there's this asshole deer out there named spike who likes to give jesse's teacher shit and they can't shoot him or anything cos it's illegal so this deer runs around like he's gonna charge people. i hope he gets hit by a car or something. just not jesse's.

Friday, December 22, 2006

Guns and fashion

I've noticed a recent popularity of guns being used in fashion on clothing articles thanks to bizarre confused art fag designers. Don't get me wrong, I love guns, I love clothing with guns, I own a gun...soon to be guns. But I'm talking people who don't even like guns who are anti gun sporting tunics with guns on them because they think it's a cool "design". Well fuck that. I mean if you're anti gun, don't fuckin wear a shirt with guns on it!!! Let's look at some of these gun designs shall we??? I found these on the urban outfitters website, which is like the mecca of liberal art fag clothing:

Oh kay let's start here. Johnny Cash. Great artist. Great use of guns. Bad use of model. Do you seriously think that girl listens to Johnny Cash or likes guns? If it weren't for the fact her hipster boyfriend took her to see Walk The Line, she'd probably have no idea who he is.

Here's problem number 2: the "rock" art fagette sporting a fake vintage Guns N' Roses tee. I doubt she'd be very welcomed in the jungle. She looks like she'd be sitting at the sidelines with Cindy Sheehan protesting Bush and the war in Iraq. Nice try, rocker art fagette. We know you're just as anti gun as the last girl...

Let's see what eBay home of everything imaginable had to offer:

Oh this is bad. Sure it's a ray gun, but it's shooting STARS!!! I doubt any intergallactic bad guy would shoot stars at his enemies. He'd blast them to a lazer beamed firey death. This is ridiculous!

This angers me profusely. Guns. And hearts. Why not put glitter on it while you're at it?!?!?! Guns belong NOWHERE near hearts unless it is one of your possession and it is near and dear to yours, much as my Mauser is to me. UGh. Vile article of clothing. Deserves to be burned.

This one possesses some credibility, but the trippy hippy trails make it lose out on whatever potential it might have had. Needless to speak, some anti-gun liberal candy raver will probably wear this to their next rave. What a shame...

This one is by far the worst. Let's take a machine gun and shoot out love instead of death. Goddammit what ridiculous peacefreak drugs was this designer on when they created this and can we outlaw those drugs? When will people learn about the hearts and guns. Steer clear!!! Stay away!!! You wouldn't touch a fence that said Danger 20,000 Volts would you? So why would you put hearts near a gun, let alone worse, shooting OUT of the gun?!?!?! Somebody get me a drink...

I just have had enough of these bad design concepts of guns being used as fashion statements for anti-gun girls. If you're going to wear a gun shirt, be like me, be pro gun, know that guns don't kill people but that stupid people kill people, guns don't shoot love and hearts but BULLETS that cause damage not love, and that if you're going to wear a band shirt with guns on it, at least listen to the music of the artists you're wearing on your tee. Moral of story: don't just wear something to be clever, mean it.

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Amazing discovery!!!

I discovered a new drink by accident thanks to Raul, who yesterday asked me to get him a drink that wasn't soda or juice at the liquor store. What I found was an energy drink from Arizona: Green Tea Pomagranite. It is beyond amazing and it gets me more wired than DrPepper. Ok so it's $2 a can but worth every sip. I love it and have elected it my new official drink. Yay!

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Alissa got jacked, yo!!!

1. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
yes and i long to kiss him again

2. What song describes your relationship status?
i dunno but i think heart alone describes it beforehand lol.

3. How much does your dog weigh?
30 lbs

4. Do you have hair in the middle parts of your fingers?
i aint no neanderthal

5. Ever waxed your legs?
i've waxed my hoohoo but never my legs. i think i was really bored cos it was like 3 am when i did it but that was like 5 years ago.

6. Earrings or necklaces?

7. Who have you talked to most today?
probably my coworkers. i see them 1/3 of my day

8. What is the oldest text message in your inbox on your phone?
my cousin wanting to meet up

9. Friend of the opposite sex that lives closest to you?
probably my boss

10. Color of your shirt?
mustard yellow. yea i pick the rad colors.

11. How many years have you been taking a language?
i took spanish for 3 years

12. Who's on speed dial 5?

13. What color is your background on your computer mainly?
its camouflage

14. Do you wish on 11:11?
pft no... but i do wish in tunnels

15. Good advice if you ever go camping?
layer layer layer.

16. Are you a bad influence?
ah yea i am a bad influence to a degree.

17. What color are your eyes?
brown eyes with a green heart

18. Would you rather have your name or your siblings name?
no i like mine better

19. Would you do anything for someone?
im a dependable person for everyone i know.

20. Have you ever been called a whore?
yea my ex pretty much called me a whore after we were broken up cos he was booty hurt.

21. Biggest success so far in life?
my career. which is my life. so i guess i have a successful life... :)

22. Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
see 21

23. What song is on?
gwar - king queen

24. Last time you didn't go to school?
ages ago.

25. Are your grades good?
were. im not in school currently.

26. Do you have any friends with benefits?

27. Would you date anyone on your top friends?
i totally do duh.

28.Does your best friend have a myspace?

29. Whose page did you last visit?
jesse's and i left him a comment one of my friends posted as a bulletin of a guy hand farting bohemian rhapsody.

30. Last time you went out to dinner?
last night w/ my dad to mongolian bbq

31. Would you rather be in a relationship that was a lie and be happy for a while or not be in it at all?
dude i did that for 5 years and it fucked me up royally. id rather be happy with no one than live a lie.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006


[1] the other day i get a fraud email from "paypal" claiming my account is suspended cos it registered usage from another ip. well no shit sherlock. i use paypal on different computers. granted i'm far too smart to fall for their "click our link and verify your account". fuck that. i mean are there really people that stupid out there ??? the link to "verify" takes to a non-paypal url and i was able to log onto my account. i reported that shit to paypal. stupid fuckers. i just pity the people who fall for those scams...

[2] my room is really cold. i don't know why as hot as the heater gets it's always freezing in here. then like at some bunk ass hour it'll get hot and i can't sleep.

[3] I got Del Taco tonight cos Taco Bell has that ecoli shit going on right now. Anyway, it took a ridiculously long time for them to get my nachos together. I should have just gone inside but I was too cold...

[4] I just finished writing a letter in my book of letters. I feel sorta bittersweet for doing it but I had to write it. It brings a lot of comfort to me to know that I wrote it down. I'm not sure when or if I can ever share that one...

[5] last night when i brought my laundry home it was raining and my clothes got a little damp and i had to dry them and re fold and everything. it was annoying as hell. i feel like i wasted my day yesterday in doing so but then again seeing the argument in the parking lot and the two teenage boys be called fuckin morons for not knowing how to do laundry made it kinda worth it...

Sunday, December 10, 2006


This morning I went out on a solo land party. It was fun. I only shot off 40 rounds which was enough for me to clear my head and calm down a bit. I was feeling really nervous this morning and most of the night and couldn't sleep but shooting did the trick and it was rather soothing. I'm rather pleased with myself in the sense that I am getting better with Josef and actually able to hit targets. The best was when these two dudes were watching me and I shot and totally hit the steel plate and they were like "damn! little girl does well with a big gun!" it was pretty sweet. but i managed to fuck up my thumb. there's this sorta scuffed part of wood on josef and every time i'd fire my thumb would rub up against it and its basically raw now. i think i need to develop a mauser callus or something. anyway i took him home and cleaned him and hes all beautiful and clean now. he was happy to get out and i was happy to take him out. it's been a few months... almost 5 actually... he deserves some play. im gonna take him back out again next weekend. good times, good times. i wish jesse were there to see my improvement.

Saturday, December 9, 2006

R.C.K., you tempting bastard, you.

i don't know where to start. i feel like i am this close to losing jesse. i don't think he wants to be with me because he feels like i'm not my own person. i think the charm has faded since he broke up with alissa and i'm no longer needed as a steppingstone for him. maybe that's my catastrophic thinking kicking in. i just was emotionally blank to what jesse was telling me and i felt pain but didn't express it. my heart has a deep feeling of pain. i have the urge to vomit. i keep saying i want to move to arizona cos jesse always talks about it and now he's like "i don't want to live in arizona" and it's my fault. he says i should move there cos thats what will make me happy. that won't make me happy. i could live in a box under a bridge with him and i would be happy. i don't think he understands that. instead he sees my wanting to wait for him as me staying in a bad situation and that i should move far far away and get away from everyone and everything. why is it a problem that i want to wait for him? i love him. i want to spend my life with him. instead he pushes me away. i don't want to be thrown out. i've found my niche in life already. i feel emotionally scorn.

what i want out of life

i want to be married. i want to share my life and grow with someone who will love me and enjoy sharing their life experiences with me. i want someone who will love, honor, and respect me as will i do the same to them. i want to have dinner ready after work. i want a job where i am successful and make a lot of money or at least enough to pay the bills. i want benefits and paid vacations. i want to love what i do and get paid to do it. i want my cake and to eat it too. i want to stop taking pills to make me happy or unhappy or whatever comes in between. i want the deserts and the oceans. i want to see more of the world. i want all this and then some. i just don't know where to start...

Tuesday, December 5, 2006

boredom stolen from alissa

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!

How do you feel today?
what kinda fool do you think i am? (bill deal and the rhondels)

What's your outlook on life?
delivering the goods (judas priest)

What does your family think of you?
bloody mary (gwar)

What do your friends think of you?
touch and go (the cars)

What do strangers think of you?
lady boo (throw rag)

What do your exes think of you?

How has your love life been so far?
happy death day (gwar) happy now. death day past.

How will your love life be in the future?
trouble (throw rag) im hoping trouble in the sense of bad fun...

Will you get married?
living after midnight (judas priest) FUCK YEA!!!! married after midnight maybe. thatd be kinda cool.

Will you have kids?
think you oughta know this (GWAR) lol yea think you oughta know i aint havin kids

Are you good in school?
twist (goldfrapp)

Will you be succesful in life?
bottle of wine (the fireballs)

What song should they play on your birthday?
lovin' touchin squeezin (journey) fuck yea im gonna sing this on my birfday

What song should they play at your funeral?
the horror of yig (gwar) the horror. the horror. yea kurtz's dying words shall also remain my own...

The Soundtrack of Your Life:
Now:I tonight she comes (the cars)
Later: crush, kill, destroy (gwar)

You and your best friend are:
bad bad men (gwar) pft. whatever.

Happy times:
beast in me (throw rag)

Sad times:
bone snapper (gwar)

Every day:

For tomorrow:
meat sandwich (gwar)

Also stolen from the same post...


So, here's how it works:

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, etc).
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question press the next button.
Ready? GO!

1.Opening Credits: have you seen me (gwar) heh. heheheh.
2.Waking Up: shake it up (the cars)
3.Falling In Love: these dreams (heart)
4.Fight Scene: my girly ways (gwar)
5.Breakig Up: the apes of wrath (gwar)
6.Making up:surf of syn (gwar)
7.Life's Okay: je m'appelle jacques cousteau (gwar) what...the...fuck????
8.Mental Breakdown:Gonna Kill You (Gwar) makes sense...
9.Driving: any way you want it (journey)
10.Flashbacks: ram it down (judas priest)
12.Partying: world o filth (gwar)
13.Regretting: if looks could kill ( heart)
14.Final Battle: knife in yer guts (gwar) how appropriate...
15.Death Scene: just what i needed (the cars) jesus.
16. Ending Credits- wheel in the sky (journey) ahahahahahahah.

my movie's gonna be like some sorta gawd awful cheezeball metal epic saga.

my shuffle likes to pick out gwar over all the other crap i got on. don't get me wrong, gwar is the all-holy shit, but some variety woulda been nice...

Sunday, December 3, 2006

Li'l Deuce Deuce

As everyone knows, I am good friends with Deuce Deuce, Jesse's .22 Ruger Mark III. So to celebrate getting my Handgun Certificate, I decided to put one of my own on lay away. Hooray. So my deuce deuce is the exact model as Jesse's only it's stainless steel because I like the shiny. I suppose that's what separates men from women, the desire for something shiny... Anyway, here's a preview of what greatness will soon come:

Saturday, December 2, 2006


I passed the handgun safety test with flying colors missing zero...count that ZERO.... questions. Even Jesse said he missed one. Ha! I rule!

Friday, December 1, 2006


I decided tomorrow will be the day I finally take my handgun safety test. I know it's stupidly easy but I'm nervous. I shouldn't be. Wish me luck...